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1924




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Who Cries Over Dead Spiders?
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I fell in love far too young to realize that evil lies within the silver plated tongue
It broke my heart- but brokenness repaired is often stronger than the product at the start
So I'm a better man, for I've been places that without losing you I know I never would have been
Now these broken feet can walk and not only stand

My, oh my, a man can not deny
That depression will kill you just as fast as dying
My, oh my, a heart can't ignore the signs
Sometimes it ain't even worth the crying 

I found freedom in a prison cell
and sweet release within a world that only offered me hell
So now I can smile - for I've felt comfort in a world where comfort only meant denial
My whole life sucks but I think I'll stay awhile


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Hold To Your Anchors

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Faithless promises that nothing is going to bring me down
I guess some things never mend - they sort of just stop being talked about
You promised me in time it would be over, over
and peace would turn all worry into light
Yet here with every hour growing older, older
I long only to feel once more alive

You said, "have a little faith - work on building hope and trust"
But it's hard to work on things that never really worked for us
You told me if I held onto my anchors, anchors
No storm this sinking ship could ever break
To die by putting faith in fallen saviors, saviors
and drown by trusting you was my mistake

You promised me the world - this bitter, cruel, and unlit place
Our heros must be fools - for who desires to hold such weight?
I once believed in love, but Dear, I'm so much older now
What's followed from afar will only leave you lost and turned around


You told me if I held onto my anchors, anchors
No storm this sinking ship could ever break
To die by putting faith in fallen saviors, saviors
and drown by trusting you was my mistake

You promised me in time it would be over, over
and peace would turn all worry into light
Yet here with every hour growing older, older
I long only to feel once more alive




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1924
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Momma, the radio is playing all the sad songs
The kind that make a grown man like me want to cry
Sometimes I take my heart and tear it off my sleeve
To wash it down and ring it out and hang it up to dry
oh oh, oh oh

Oh no, Pretty Darlin' don't you know?
You could have my heart forever if you never let me go
No, no, no, no - Baby, don't let go
Please, don't ever let me go

Some pray for blessings while others simply steal
While all the sinners, slowly dying, hope to God that he isn't real
But me, I only hope and me, I only pray
That you and I will be together on my dying day
oh oh, oh oh

But what about my heart?
Was it ever mine at all?
But if you've got a reason then you know that I can fall - I can fall for you
What about my heart?
Was it ever really mine?
If you've got the answers, you know I have the time
But if you fear the answers then, baby, I can lie
But if you just need confessions, pretty girl, I've got a line for you
...I'll tell you...

Oh no, Pretty Darlin' don't you know?
You could have my heart forever if you never let me go
No, no, no, no - Baby, don't let go
Please, don't ever let me go




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Overwhelming Sense
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I fear I'm far less fearless than I claim
Still I face the shame and I keep striving to be great
Come rain, through mountain storms and flooding
I once would stand in olden days - now I feel I'll simply break

Lately down is the one direction I've been running
Like I'm stuck inside a wheel where forward I can not progress
But I hear the sound of a saviour a' coming
So I guess that I'll keep stumbling until face to face we've met

I've got an overwhelming sense of falling down again
Like I'm falling down again
I've got an overwhelming sense of falling down again
Like I'm falling to my calloused knees again

A mighty presence of really anything sweep over
and assure me there's consistency in grace and eternal love
Because from here in this hell it seems like heaven must be vacant
For all the sinners and the vagrants and the crawling ones like us



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Away! My Weight, Aweigh!
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Let an ocean of mercy flow through my veins
and quell my contentious dissolution of faith
I want to grow ever-stronger from these burdens I face
 - simply to feel they were worth it

Come peace overwhelming, possess my mind
and assure me there's ease for restlessness pure as mine
I want to know beyond doubt that if I struggle I'll find that for which I've been searching

Oh, I don't want to feel this weight holding on to me this way
I'm tired of this endless waiting for anything to keep me safe
Oh, I don't want to feel any weight anymore

So hope everlasting consume my soul...
   ...and carry me over...
       ...to where I'm told no worry surrounding can take control
- I want to feel something certain



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Audrey Hepburn Would'a Loved Me
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Darlin', pretty angel - don't you lean on me
'Cus I'll only leave you lonely when I up and leave
If anything is for certain it's uncertainty
So honey, pretty child don't depend on me
Darlin', pretty angel - don't you lean on me

I want to wake up every morning in a brand new town
You shouldn't really bother looking 'cus I won't be found
Until they lay me in a coffin or they find me drowned
I want to wake up every morning in some new town
I want to wake up every morning in a brand new town

Some days have been better but they've sure been worse
Life is a young man's blessing and an old man's curse
I'm just trying to get wealthy if I don't die first
Wealth is an old man's blessing and a young man's curse
Ain't it weird how a blessing becomes your curse?

So I'm leaving in the morning out to find my home

Between southern California and Ohio
You shouldn't really try to follow because I don't know
If I'm ever going to find a place to call my own
Between southern California and Ohio

I've got a young man's body and an old man's soul
and a tongue built for lying, and a heart like coal
I want travel the world through the old Dustbowl
Writing songs about freedom with my storytelling soul
Until I leave this body for a heart like gold

So now you know, pretty darlin', not to lean on me
'cus I'll only leave you lonely when I up and leave
The only thing for certain is uncertainty
So darlin, pretty angel, don't depend on me
Unless you want to love a boy who always leaves
You say you've been looking for a man like me
Then darlin', pretty angel come and lean on me



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Holding Bloody Hands
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Darlin’ rest awhile for the sky seems to be storming
Won’t you anchor to me child, for you’ve mended my torn heart
Let your problems vanish while I frighten far away your frightening things
I want you to believe that I’m not shaken by devotion
My dear, don’t be deceived to think I’m just going through the motions
I’m just trying to make sense of the unfamiliar emotions that you bring

I want to end your aimless searching
So you know you’re not alone
But one thing is still uncertain –
Is that blood on your hands? Is that blood on your hands?
Is that blood on your hands cause for worry or from carrying your own heart?

Trust me, I know trusting isn’t easy for our kind
But if you let me I’ll defend your heart much more than I will mine
I'll fight away the darkness ‘till your nightmares all subside and disappear

I want to end your aimless searching
So you know you’re not alone
I want to block your waves of your doubt to dry all your trembling bones
I want to hold your hand in fire
and go before you when the demons all come
In the midst of all your trials, I want to be your home
Until there’s blood on my hands
If there is blood on my hands
If you see blood on my hands, never worry – it’s from fighting for your heart


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You Make Me Happy Enough
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I sat behind you in your sunday school seat
You made a paper airplane that I thought was neat
So I spilled all of your Kool-aid as an excuse to meet
and maybe take that plane for a spin
Soon we became friends and we became grown
It wasn't long 'till we were sneaking out of our windows
and down by the lake and talk about plans we'd make
and school and dreams and problems and such

(I though)
You make me happy enough to kind of wonder what being in love feels like
You make me feel safe enough to care

I just wanted you to fall down for me
so I could fall to my knee and beg you to please
"come and carry my ring" so we can live happily
through life in love together awhile
Soon we traded circles and you stole my last name
then rode off in the sunset through a rice covered rain
The times they got hard but we never complained
We just laughed at all the bills as they piled

I thought,
You make me happy enough to never wonder what being in love would feel like
You make me feel brave enough to want to tell you all the time
I can't accurately say how much you mean to me
'cus every time that I try it just changes, you see 
to more and more and more and more and more...

We sit on the porch, staring up at the moon
You tell a stupid joke, I kind of make fun of you
I light up a smoke and you ask for one too
and say, "These things are gonna kill me"
I say, "It's probably true, but if I die next to you
then I'm fine passing through into the sky ever blue"
If they kill me they do - but it's fine because you
have been the only one to fulfill me"

You make me happy enough to never wonder what being in love would feel like
You make me feel brave enough to want to tell you all the time
I can't accurately say how much you mean to me
'cus every time that I try it just changes, you see 
to more and more and more and more and more...

Here we are now in matching hospital beds
Telling jokes that simply go over the young nurse's head
I push back my tray full of yogurt and bread
to lean in to kiss you goodnight
(and say)

You make me happy enough to never wonder what being in love feels like
You make me feel brave enough that I don't mind if I go tonight
Because you've taken my breath away, my dear
From day one to here, through tomorrow and nowhere
I can't accurately say how much you mean to me
'cus every time that I try it changes, you see 
to more and more and more and more and more...


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Southern Angel
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I'm not going to feel - not going to feel anymore
For my old, torn, fighter's heart has grown tired of blood soaked floors
Oh, is there no reward in fighting?
Do I wrap my hands just to be brought to my knees?

Oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh - I'm not scared of dying - just of going o'er alone
Oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh - won't my own, sweet, southern angel take me home

I hear that nothing is free but dying and the hope of finding grace
So take this penny for your old smile and my heart for ne'er to change
Oh, I'll set your memories all to burning
with an ember from our once exquisite flame

Out here the good men are forgotten - left holding someone else's chains
While the ever-haunting angels over memory's kingdom reign
Oh, what happened to you savior that made it so I don't feel safe with you?


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The Wolves
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Some nights I hide behind my blankets
wishing you'd come and lay your body next to mine
A subtle fortress I create to keep me safe from all the wolves waiting outside
They've been howling and prowling and scouring the room for fools like me
If cloth and wool keep me protected, then imagine in your arms how safe I'd be?

So won't you lift me to my feet and keep me from crawling
on my hands and bleeding knees like I've been for so long?

My father always taught me, "Boy, you've got to build some castles in your heart."
So I did, but now I feel like they've been under siege and burned and torn apart
If my faith made up the mortar and my confidence among the bricks that I laid
Then perhaps I destroyed my own walls to find a stone to top my grave

So won't you lift me to my feet and keep me from crawling
on my hands and bleeding knees like I've been for so long?
Won't you take this weight from me, 'cus I'm desperately calling?"
Come show me how to be a better man - for otherwise I'll be alive too long 

Won't you repair me - for I've grown tired of mending myself?
What peace can you bring to nullify how much I've failed?


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Sink! Sink!
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I was lying there dying in a hospital room, in a hospital bed where I lay
Oh, just lying there dying in a hospital room
When I turned to my mother, took her hand and kind of struggled just to say:

I hope they bury me beneath the ocean
I hope they throw my body to the waves
All those fishes that I meet will have a fresh supply of meat
My body will sustain them like their flesh once sustained me
Oh, I hope they bury me beneath the sea, sea, sea
Oh, I hope they bury me beneath the sea

I hope they lay my body in an orchard
When it finally comes my time to die
All the worms can find a home digging holes into my bones
They can all live happily there somewhere deep inside of me
Oh, I hope they bury me beneath the trees, trees, trees
Oh, I hope they bury me beneath the trees

Oh, my mother, hold me close until my flesh turns into ghost

I’ll be fine on the other side alone

I hope they freeze my body in a chamber
For research in some scientific lab
As an experimental tool to cure diseases oh, so cruel
And bring an end to the struggles of their labor
Oh, I hope they freeze my body in a chamber, chamber, chamber
Oh, I hope they freeze my body in a chamber

Oh, my mother, I love you so
So take my hand before I go
Oh, I'll be fine on the other side alone

Oh, my mother, hold me close until my flesh turns into ghost

I’ll be fine on the other side alone


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Forever Shine Your Light
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Until I find my way back home, forever shine your light
Through the vast, into the tempest glow;
Pierce the deep, aphotic night
Until the oceans cease their tormenting flow
and the waves decrease their heights
Leave a pillow by the fire, my dear
Forever shine your light
Oh, forever shine your light

Oh oh oh oh

I've searched through the howl and the all consuming waves
to find shelter upon your shore
So emit through these lightless, disheartening days
until my shadow I cast over your beckoning door
Oh, forever shine your light

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